Monday, January 18, 2010

烦心

近好多事情都不顺利。
先说Final Year Project 1的成绩。我真的不满意那种成绩。
尤其当你知道别的朋友花比你少的心思,用比你少的时间,做的比你轻松,却得到比你好的成绩时,当下只觉得心如刀割。。(以上言论绝无针对任何人,纯粹自己的感觉,我并不是觉得自己做的比你们好)。
我知道我的老师很严格。可是拿到这种烂等级,我无法想象FYP2会再死的多难看。
因为大多数情况都是降级。当然也得看运气,拿到不严格的老师,成绩自然不会差。
到底我能不能以我想要的成绩毕业?这是我最后一个学期了,不要再来这些打击好吗!!


我受不了自己每个学期的CGPA只升了0.04 还是0.05。
我受不了自己的成绩没有明显的进步。
我受不了自己每个学期都拿这种烂成绩。
我受不了自己那么笨,什么事都做不好。
我受不了自己什么优点都没有。
我受不了自己一而再再二三的让自己做的这么烂。
我受不了自己总是比别人笨,比别人差。
我受不了自己那么笨,什么事都搞砸。


学车也一样。人家学八个小时就会,我学了七个小时,还是那么差。
要加时间学车又得等到农历新年后。现在想怎样?等多一个月,到时我又生疏了,又要我重头学过吗?很想骂粗话。。
很多东西,即使你不喜欢,还是得接受。


虽然我告诉过自己:人生要有起伏,才是真正的人生。
可是到最后,我才发现自己还是一样软弱。。




Sunday, January 10, 2010

"holiday"





26/12/2009 4.59pm listening the incomplete song
Give some time for guitar beginner=)




01/01/2010 11.36pm camwhoring



05/01/2010 -7.22pm Rainbow
Wonder why the sky look "pinky" on 7.22pm, surprisingly saw RAINBOW~
The electrical wire somehow spoil the view *_*





07/01/2010 1.30pm First tried long bean fried egg
It just break into pieces when i try to turn it around*_*
i spend most of the time on Facebook, Plurk, PPS, Driving lesson..
I'm so lazy to start editing my FYP 1..slap me pls..*piak*
I just get the approval of my FYP questionnaires on Friday.
After i done the pilot test, i found most of the respondents do not purchase green products before.
OMG..how i'm goin to analyse my survey...
Seem like everything didn't go smoothly..
Bukit Beruang was blackout yesterday. wth~i was alone in the house and it was 7.30pm~i can't even see my dinner@#$%#%
I can't get help from any of my friend because most of them have going back their hometown and enjoying their sweet holiday..
I just realised my 人缘 is very poor~
Kinda sad and walked to library in the darkness..
Tenaga Nasional, i did pay the electricity bill and please don't simply blackout again especially during MMU sem break!!
Hope the holiday end soon *_*